So I took a week to cool off a bit. Clear my head and get some things into perspective. This weekend is my first official change over to day shift at work, so it feels really good to get some sleep and be awake when my family wants to have me close by.
The hardest hitting topic for me right now... the passing of Michael Turner (Fathom, Witchblade, Aspen Comics). A brilliant comic book artist who was not only battling cancer, but continued to enjoy the things he loved in life AND draw comic books on a regular basis.
I'm feeling a bit selfish now. Complaining about how tough life has been for me. While I won't take any of that back, I can still do better. Michael Turner did his best. Why can't I?
I went to my boffer group (Padded weapon fighting) Saturday fully rested and energetic. The heat got up to 88 degrees by mid-day, and I was running around in boots having a great time. I felt good. I FEEL good now. All this season I had been slowly walking around the field, maybe hitting a person every 5 or 6 battles. No energy. Barely any running. And by the end of the day I would be so zoned out, I'm surprised when I get home and I hadn't driven off the road. Amazing what the proper amount of sleep can do for you.
Maybe this is a new weekend. A new week. A new day. Right here and now, I can stand up for what I want in life. Live MY life to it's fullest. Do everything that I have ever wanted to do, and tell people to "Fuck Off!" when they tell me I can't.
Day 1... starts here
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Bitter much?
Okay, so I title this "Bitter much?" However, I don't think I'm honestly bitter, as much as I am really just finding out more and more about how I shouldn't expect anything in life. Anything at all.
I get a lot of crap for not getting my comic book done, despite working 40-50 hours a week and getting 4-5 hours of sleep between each work shift. There is more, but nobody is reading this shit anyways. See, I want to get my comic book done. I want to draw for a living. I want to entertain people with my stories and ideas. But I honestly don't have the professional quality or training needed to pull it off sucessfully. And I can already hear the crap that people keep telling me "Don't say that, your stuff rocks." or "Don't listen to those people, they don't know what real art is." Give me a fucking break everybody. My art sucks. I can't draw anything in a professional quality, I have a vague understanding of the human anatomy, I only want to draw women and I get enough shit for that. I don't understand lighting and design. I mean, what the fuck am I thinking? Why even bother? How the hell do I expect to even get a damn comic book going?
Am I bitter much? I wouldn't say bitter... just accepting reality. This comic book just isn't going to happen.
I get a lot of crap for not getting my comic book done, despite working 40-50 hours a week and getting 4-5 hours of sleep between each work shift. There is more, but nobody is reading this shit anyways. See, I want to get my comic book done. I want to draw for a living. I want to entertain people with my stories and ideas. But I honestly don't have the professional quality or training needed to pull it off sucessfully. And I can already hear the crap that people keep telling me "Don't say that, your stuff rocks." or "Don't listen to those people, they don't know what real art is." Give me a fucking break everybody. My art sucks. I can't draw anything in a professional quality, I have a vague understanding of the human anatomy, I only want to draw women and I get enough shit for that. I don't understand lighting and design. I mean, what the fuck am I thinking? Why even bother? How the hell do I expect to even get a damn comic book going?
Am I bitter much? I wouldn't say bitter... just accepting reality. This comic book just isn't going to happen.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Slightly Aligned Synapsis
Holy crap!? Two blogs in one week, what are the odds?? I received good news from my job announcing that I am now moving back to my old position with Monday through Fridays, day shift. This will ease up the tension in my family and sleep hours, and will hopefully lead towards a lower blood pressure and better health type living.
With these recent changes I will now be able to schedule out my artwork and plan out what projects I need to finish and work on. Recently I did a quick drawing of my main character, Tim Garn (above) and I feel like I didn't even put any effort into it at all. I'm kinda bummed about it.
But regardless, I press on with some good news. I have a whole assortment of projects lined up that I hope to be able to announce by the end of the month. With these new projects I will also be announcing artists, models and photographers who will be jumping in to help get things going. Some people are volunteering, others I've had to hire. Either way, if all goes well I will be able to get MockTales.com fully updated, upgraded and up and running by July 2008. This includes character descriptions, story previews, online comics, and even a wiki full of information about the Comic Book Universe of Nexus Earth.
The other projects, I don't want to announce too much about because I want to make sure I can get everything rolling. I can say however that I am putting together my adult site version of MockTales. While MockTales is a PG-13 to R rated style book and web site, the new site will be R rated to NC-17 and slightly softcore. I have no wishes to do full-on adult site work, showing intercourse or extreme vulgarity. There are plenty of sites out there for that, and that ain't my bag... baby. This new site will end up being a "members only" site and will require people to pay. However, I am still working this all out, so a bit of patience if you will. Thanks
If anyone reads this knows people who are doing photography or who model, and would be interested in helping out. Please tell them to send me email. mocktales@gmail.com
I ask in good faith about getting artists and models because I know there are people out there just like me who are struggling to find their way. To express themselves. (I said express, not expose. We'll talk about exposing myself after I get to comfortably stop working security. Thanks) Artisticly I see people all over the world on Deviantart.com, MySpace, Blogs, comic sites... ect. I see the talent out there. And with 6.8 billion people in the world (and growing), there are so many different ways people want to get their ideas out to the rest of us. I'm the same way. I have my ideas. I have my dreams. I want to share these with everyone and anyone I can possibly entertain.
I'll leave tonight's blog with this; if we are truly the masters of our own destiny, and mind really does work over matter, then what the hell is it that is preventing me from doing what I truly want to do in life... other than myself?
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Mis-fired Synapsis
I don't know why... I just can't seem to write a weekly blog. I think part of it is due to laziness and the other part is a side of me that doesn't want to "just let it all out." As someone who has always tried to listen to other people's problems, I found myself learning way too much about them. Personal information that, thankfully for them, I feel other people don't really need to know about.
But where do I draw the line on keeping all this information? And when the hell do "I" get to get these things off my chest without people telling me that I'm just bitching and complaining? Something like a blog is usually a good place to just write and let it all out. "To hell with the consequences." Right? Well in the same respect, I come back to that conflict where someone will read these things and the trust that others have put in me to keep their words silent may be broken. So this sucks.
";alskdjfivna'/zeignsa sear 14." Roughly translated "What the &$#@ should I do?"
I do not comprehend the world the same way as the rest of you. *points to the other 6.8 billion people on the planet* But to narrow it down, I've come to realize that even the most common things in life that people take for granted, I don't comprehend. People use to make fun of me for this lack of knowledge. And for this, I would shelter myself away, keep quiet around crowds, be shy and timid, take no action when action is needed. What else was I to do? I didn't know what questions to ask in order to learn the things that people commonly knew. I was a living paradox. I still feel I am to this day. I am easily emotional. I care about things that no one else cares about, but I don't care about things that people DO care about. ? ?
If you haven't figured out by now that I am just typing all of this as it comes out in my head, well... now you know. Am I being truthful? Yes. I believe myself to be one of the most truthful people I know. I see no reason to lie to anyone. I have had my fair share of Fish stories in the past, and I don't really feel happy knowing that I have embellished the truth. I think people should be happy with the way things are, without the white lies or exaggerating the truth. In fact, since I am on the subject, I am so sick and tired of people telling fish stories. While I won't mention names, I have to say the biggest Fish story culture I've been a part of is the SCA (Society for Creative Anachronisms). The SCA in itself is cool, and I love getting away and camping out in a medieval environment for the weekend. And I can understand people telling a story about a made up character that they are role-playing. But when people just can't let it go. When people don't understand that they they are being too far fetched... then it just gets on my nerves. And if they see that you're not believing their story, they push it further! WTF?!
And another thing, since I seem to be on a rant now; I am SICK AND FUCKING TIRED of people interrupting me when I'm talking about something. There is nothing more frustrating than to finally have people listening to me talk about a subject... to finally have the courage to talk to crowds of people... and to even have those people laughing at the jokes I tell, or ask me to tell them more about what I am talking about.... only to have someone cut in and interupt me. I had a situation not too long ago I was entertaining at least 12 people. They were laughing at my jokes, and for the shy and timid person I am, I was able to let loose and finally open up and have fun. Then all of a sudden something just HAD to happen which pulled everyone away and put a glum on the rest of the night. No one was having fun any more. No one wanted to talk to each other any more. And my weekend... ruined because someone couldn't just chill the fuck out, calm down and enjoy the evening. The situation was overblown, people flipped out when they didn't need to. ARg.... I can't explain without telling names, places and such. So I'll just stop here.
There is so much more that I can't really say without being able to just open up and let loose. Plus I don't know if anyone is even reading this. I don't know what to do with a lot of things in my life. I would like to keep working hard and and "Keep on truck'n" as people keep telling me to do. I have all these dreams and goals in my life. First and formost these days, my wife and kids come first. But I know there are so many people out there that are supporting their families with their skills.... why not me? Why can't I get my shit together and draw professionally; with better anatomy, better design, better work eithics, better... ugh... better everything. I feel that drawing is the only skill I truly have that I can make any kind of living with, and yet I can't seem to get it together. I can't seem to just.... CLICK. Why can't I click... ON, like a light switch. Why can't my damn synapsis fire and give me that light bulb above my head that says "AH HA, I GET IT NOW!" Well I don't get it. I fear I will never get it. In order for me to get anywhere with my artwork on a professional level I will have to step it up even further. Work hard. Work harder. Not hard enough, well damn it WORK HARDER!
Fin.... for now
But where do I draw the line on keeping all this information? And when the hell do "I" get to get these things off my chest without people telling me that I'm just bitching and complaining? Something like a blog is usually a good place to just write and let it all out. "To hell with the consequences." Right? Well in the same respect, I come back to that conflict where someone will read these things and the trust that others have put in me to keep their words silent may be broken. So this sucks.
";alskdjfivna'/zeignsa sear 14." Roughly translated "What the &$#@ should I do?"
I do not comprehend the world the same way as the rest of you. *points to the other 6.8 billion people on the planet* But to narrow it down, I've come to realize that even the most common things in life that people take for granted, I don't comprehend. People use to make fun of me for this lack of knowledge. And for this, I would shelter myself away, keep quiet around crowds, be shy and timid, take no action when action is needed. What else was I to do? I didn't know what questions to ask in order to learn the things that people commonly knew. I was a living paradox. I still feel I am to this day. I am easily emotional. I care about things that no one else cares about, but I don't care about things that people DO care about. ? ?
If you haven't figured out by now that I am just typing all of this as it comes out in my head, well... now you know. Am I being truthful? Yes. I believe myself to be one of the most truthful people I know. I see no reason to lie to anyone. I have had my fair share of Fish stories in the past, and I don't really feel happy knowing that I have embellished the truth. I think people should be happy with the way things are, without the white lies or exaggerating the truth. In fact, since I am on the subject, I am so sick and tired of people telling fish stories. While I won't mention names, I have to say the biggest Fish story culture I've been a part of is the SCA (Society for Creative Anachronisms). The SCA in itself is cool, and I love getting away and camping out in a medieval environment for the weekend. And I can understand people telling a story about a made up character that they are role-playing. But when people just can't let it go. When people don't understand that they they are being too far fetched... then it just gets on my nerves. And if they see that you're not believing their story, they push it further! WTF?!
And another thing, since I seem to be on a rant now; I am SICK AND FUCKING TIRED of people interrupting me when I'm talking about something. There is nothing more frustrating than to finally have people listening to me talk about a subject... to finally have the courage to talk to crowds of people... and to even have those people laughing at the jokes I tell, or ask me to tell them more about what I am talking about.... only to have someone cut in and interupt me. I had a situation not too long ago I was entertaining at least 12 people. They were laughing at my jokes, and for the shy and timid person I am, I was able to let loose and finally open up and have fun. Then all of a sudden something just HAD to happen which pulled everyone away and put a glum on the rest of the night. No one was having fun any more. No one wanted to talk to each other any more. And my weekend... ruined because someone couldn't just chill the fuck out, calm down and enjoy the evening. The situation was overblown, people flipped out when they didn't need to. ARg.... I can't explain without telling names, places and such. So I'll just stop here.
There is so much more that I can't really say without being able to just open up and let loose. Plus I don't know if anyone is even reading this. I don't know what to do with a lot of things in my life. I would like to keep working hard and and "Keep on truck'n" as people keep telling me to do. I have all these dreams and goals in my life. First and formost these days, my wife and kids come first. But I know there are so many people out there that are supporting their families with their skills.... why not me? Why can't I get my shit together and draw professionally; with better anatomy, better design, better work eithics, better... ugh... better everything. I feel that drawing is the only skill I truly have that I can make any kind of living with, and yet I can't seem to get it together. I can't seem to just.... CLICK. Why can't I click... ON, like a light switch. Why can't my damn synapsis fire and give me that light bulb above my head that says "AH HA, I GET IT NOW!" Well I don't get it. I fear I will never get it. In order for me to get anywhere with my artwork on a professional level I will have to step it up even further. Work hard. Work harder. Not hard enough, well damn it WORK HARDER!
Fin.... for now
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Ed'jumacation! and Comics!!
School:
Well, tonight was the official first night of my online school career. I'm going after my A.A. in Business. After 10 years of procrastinating I decided to actually get back into school and get a degree that can help me during my current Security career, as well as help push my business knowledge for getting MockTales off the ground.
One of my first assignments; read an article about blogging and write a summary about it. View Article Here. Definately a bonus in my opinion since I've been wanting to kick start this Blog again. I'm also looking forward to working on my grammar and sentance structure. While I'm pretty loose on this blog and most of my emails to family and friends, a more professional approach should be used (in my opinion) when it comes to the underline background of Inner-Reality Media and all of the stories under the MockTales banner.
Comics: (Warning- Spoilers!)
Picking up a few new comics lately. Thought I would attempt some reviews:
-Ultimates 3 #1 [Jeff Loeb and Joe Madureira]: Well worth the wait for this one. While the opening completely caught me off guard, I found it a nice touch to see that Jeff Loeb isn't softening up the story of the Ultimates. Joe Mad! provided amazing details in artwork that was just breathtaking. Definately feels good to have Joe Mad! back, even if he is (rumored) to be returning to game design after the Ultimates run. Additionally I would like to mention that the colorist, Christian Lichtner also did a brilliant job with Joe's art. I personally would like to see the process they both did to acheive that art. It would seem as though Joe provided his own shading with the pencil work and Christian colored accordingly, using it as a guide. Either way, just amazing.
Problems: None so far!
-Ant: Unleashed #1 [Mario Gully and Marco Turini]: Ant is back again! Mario Gully has stepped back to just writing while Marco Turini has now taken over the penciling (and inking) duties of our favorite little insect. Now being released through Big City Comics, we almost see Hannah escape the hell she has to live in, only to be dragged back into the fight once again. They just won't leave that girl alone! A set up issue, placing Hannah/Ant at her day job, avoiding the Landlord at her apartment, giving us a decent peak at her roomate while she's "on the job", and then showing us once again why we keep coming back ready to watch people get their asses kicked by a female red Ant with a booty to keep us smiling through the whole issue.
Problems: None so far!
-Iron and the Maiden #0 [Jason Rubin and Francis Manapul with Joel Gomez]: After wrapping up their main story, this book takes us back and gives us a little insight as to where Michael Iron came from, a short story about one of his first hits after achieving Steroid lvl 4.0, right up until he was saved and his arm augmented. Not too bad of a read. Nothing too exciting either. The humor is good as usual and the artwork as always is beautiful.
Problems: I'm ready to move on. I want more and don't want to look back too much on what happened before, but what will happen next. When/if this series continues, I'll look forward to picking it up.
Well, tonight was the official first night of my online school career. I'm going after my A.A. in Business. After 10 years of procrastinating I decided to actually get back into school and get a degree that can help me during my current Security career, as well as help push my business knowledge for getting MockTales off the ground.
One of my first assignments; read an article about blogging and write a summary about it. View Article Here. Definately a bonus in my opinion since I've been wanting to kick start this Blog again. I'm also looking forward to working on my grammar and sentance structure. While I'm pretty loose on this blog and most of my emails to family and friends, a more professional approach should be used (in my opinion) when it comes to the underline background of Inner-Reality Media and all of the stories under the MockTales banner.
Comics: (Warning- Spoilers!)
Picking up a few new comics lately. Thought I would attempt some reviews:
-Ultimates 3 #1 [Jeff Loeb and Joe Madureira]: Well worth the wait for this one. While the opening completely caught me off guard, I found it a nice touch to see that Jeff Loeb isn't softening up the story of the Ultimates. Joe Mad! provided amazing details in artwork that was just breathtaking. Definately feels good to have Joe Mad! back, even if he is (rumored) to be returning to game design after the Ultimates run. Additionally I would like to mention that the colorist, Christian Lichtner also did a brilliant job with Joe's art. I personally would like to see the process they both did to acheive that art. It would seem as though Joe provided his own shading with the pencil work and Christian colored accordingly, using it as a guide. Either way, just amazing.
Problems: None so far!
-Ant: Unleashed #1 [Mario Gully and Marco Turini]: Ant is back again! Mario Gully has stepped back to just writing while Marco Turini has now taken over the penciling (and inking) duties of our favorite little insect. Now being released through Big City Comics, we almost see Hannah escape the hell she has to live in, only to be dragged back into the fight once again. They just won't leave that girl alone! A set up issue, placing Hannah/Ant at her day job, avoiding the Landlord at her apartment, giving us a decent peak at her roomate while she's "on the job", and then showing us once again why we keep coming back ready to watch people get their asses kicked by a female red Ant with a booty to keep us smiling through the whole issue.
Problems: None so far!
-Iron and the Maiden #0 [Jason Rubin and Francis Manapul with Joel Gomez]: After wrapping up their main story, this book takes us back and gives us a little insight as to where Michael Iron came from, a short story about one of his first hits after achieving Steroid lvl 4.0, right up until he was saved and his arm augmented. Not too bad of a read. Nothing too exciting either. The humor is good as usual and the artwork as always is beautiful.
Problems: I'm ready to move on. I want more and don't want to look back too much on what happened before, but what will happen next. When/if this series continues, I'll look forward to picking it up.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Health and Traffic conditions
So I have a couple new things to rant about tonight;
Personal Health: So I've had to visit the Emergency Room twice now in the last week. Once for my oldest daughter and another time for my wife. Everyone is okay, so thank goodness there. But its amazing what you hear when you are in the waiting room. Both times while waiting I had to listen to people who (in my opinion) were nothing more than hypochondriacs. People who don't know how to suck it up and just deal with every day normal pain and health problems.
If there is one thing I can't stand, its people who fake health problems for attention. It makes it harder for people who seriously need the help and proper treatment. And it isn't so much that people are hypochondriacs, but the dependancy of either the medicine and drugs, or the attention.
I could go on, but all I'm saying is for people out there who don't really have serious medical issues... for crying out loud just let it go, suck it up and work hard and stop complaining about health issues that people deal with on a regular and daily basis. Damn it, if I have to do it I don't see how hard it is for everyone else.
2nd issue; Traffic in Seattle: For this, I'm going to post a video blog when I get home. Just plain rediculous stuff I have to deal with when I drive to work every day.
(EDIT: I didn't do the video. After thinking about it, I figure I don't want this Blog to be full of rants about what ever I'm pissed off at. So I'll try to stick to topics that are a bit more upbeat.)
Personal Health: So I've had to visit the Emergency Room twice now in the last week. Once for my oldest daughter and another time for my wife. Everyone is okay, so thank goodness there. But its amazing what you hear when you are in the waiting room. Both times while waiting I had to listen to people who (in my opinion) were nothing more than hypochondriacs. People who don't know how to suck it up and just deal with every day normal pain and health problems.
If there is one thing I can't stand, its people who fake health problems for attention. It makes it harder for people who seriously need the help and proper treatment. And it isn't so much that people are hypochondriacs, but the dependancy of either the medicine and drugs, or the attention.
I could go on, but all I'm saying is for people out there who don't really have serious medical issues... for crying out loud just let it go, suck it up and work hard and stop complaining about health issues that people deal with on a regular and daily basis. Damn it, if I have to do it I don't see how hard it is for everyone else.
2nd issue; Traffic in Seattle: For this, I'm going to post a video blog when I get home. Just plain rediculous stuff I have to deal with when I drive to work every day.
(EDIT: I didn't do the video. After thinking about it, I figure I don't want this Blog to be full of rants about what ever I'm pissed off at. So I'll try to stick to topics that are a bit more upbeat.)
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Keeping to the grind stone Pt. 2
So as some of you noticed, my absence was apparent yet again online. The web site was down for a bit as well. Had to pay the bill with some recent donations, so I deeply thank everyone for the money sent in.
So here is the deal; I was suppose to have something put together for the Portland Comic Book show. I ended up getting a lucky break from my work and was sent to the UK for two different business trips, a month apart. During that time I was extremely busy with projects and couldn't do the necessary artwork needed for a show. At this point I'm putting out all new stuff for MockTales and a lot of the old stuff is going to be in literally a "bargain bin" at the next Emerald City Comic Con in 2008. We're talking a 8x11 inch b&w print for .50c a pop! Its gotta go. Old stuff out, new stuff in.
So as I further work on my business knowledge, I'm beginning to realize that I need much more then the self taught education I've been giving myself for over 10 years. Next month I will begin taking classes towards my Associates in Business. While some people may criticize me for this approach, I tend to think it is better to have the knowledge to back myself up than jump right in head first and crash like a fireball. I'm personally tired of not knowing where to go, or how to organize and structure what I want to do in life.
I have all these ideas and nothing to show for them. Many of you folks who have been kind enough to visit the web site or stop by my table at the conventions... you've all been very supportive and I thank you for it. Now its time for me to get my butt in gear and get all these ideas out. Its time to give you all content for the web site and then the Comic Book I keep saying is going to come out.
Its time
So here is the deal; I was suppose to have something put together for the Portland Comic Book show. I ended up getting a lucky break from my work and was sent to the UK for two different business trips, a month apart. During that time I was extremely busy with projects and couldn't do the necessary artwork needed for a show. At this point I'm putting out all new stuff for MockTales and a lot of the old stuff is going to be in literally a "bargain bin" at the next Emerald City Comic Con in 2008. We're talking a 8x11 inch b&w print for .50c a pop! Its gotta go. Old stuff out, new stuff in.
So as I further work on my business knowledge, I'm beginning to realize that I need much more then the self taught education I've been giving myself for over 10 years. Next month I will begin taking classes towards my Associates in Business. While some people may criticize me for this approach, I tend to think it is better to have the knowledge to back myself up than jump right in head first and crash like a fireball. I'm personally tired of not knowing where to go, or how to organize and structure what I want to do in life.
I have all these ideas and nothing to show for them. Many of you folks who have been kind enough to visit the web site or stop by my table at the conventions... you've all been very supportive and I thank you for it. Now its time for me to get my butt in gear and get all these ideas out. Its time to give you all content for the web site and then the Comic Book I keep saying is going to come out.
Its time
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Keeping to the grind stone
So we're hitting almost two months since my last post. Needed to situate things again.
As I've said before, it's a bit difficult to work a full time job, have a wife and three kids to support, AND try to get a comic book put together. I suppose I could just give it up and go with a carear in Security. What to do huh?
Well, for now I wanted to share a new thing for me. I did a quick 5 minute video blog on my comic Mocktales last night before coming in to work. I wish I had more time to draw because I've got artists waiting for concept sketches. However, I have time before my flight to the UK later on today so I'll probably put it all together then.
Video Blog #1
As I've said before, it's a bit difficult to work a full time job, have a wife and three kids to support, AND try to get a comic book put together. I suppose I could just give it up and go with a carear in Security. What to do huh?
Well, for now I wanted to share a new thing for me. I did a quick 5 minute video blog on my comic Mocktales last night before coming in to work. I wish I had more time to draw because I've got artists waiting for concept sketches. However, I have time before my flight to the UK later on today so I'll probably put it all together then.
Video Blog #1
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Celebrity waste
Here is another rant in light of the recent news about Lindsay Lohan being arrested. (Arrested for DUI and posession of Cocaine):
"A shame" is something I'm hearing a lot from people when a celebrity is arrested or has died or what ever else is going wrong in their lives. To me, I don't say its a shame, I say what a waste. To use Lindsay Lohan as an example; she is popular, attractive, rich and has had until recently a very good chance to continue a sucessful carear as an actress making more money than most people dream about. Now, not to say she hasn't worked hard to get to where she is at, because I don't know what her life was like when she grew up. I know she was in movies as a child but I only started seeing her in movies like Herbie Fully Loaded and Mean Girls.
Now, that being said... the reason I say what a waste is because I can't understand how someone like Lindsay can waste all that opportunity of money and fame on partying, drinking and drugs. I come from a frame of mind where heavy drinking and drugs and partying just doesn't make sense. Why I think this way I don't know. But to me, if I had the money she has and if I was as well known as she is, life would be so much easier. And I challenge any celebrity to approach me and tell me otherwise. I would be able to stop working Security and finally get my comic book going. I wouldn't have to worry if I'm going to pay rent on time. Keep the power on. Or if my kids are going to have diapers and formula, let alone grow up with opportunities of their own.
But hey, who am I to judge Lindsay right? Its her life, not mine right? Well its not so much about judging as it is recognizing a complete waste of opportunity. And I'm starting to get damned determined to get myself out to a wider audience in this world to prove that someone can obtain wealth and fame without having to also party and do drugs. And I won't even start in about using drugs. But hey, I know there are a lot of Celebrities out there that aren't like this. And I personally wouldn't say that every celbrity is messed up like Lindsay is right now. We just hear about it on the news because people want to hear more about the tragic lives of celebrities and not the good things they do.
So what else can I say? Nothing much really. I got most of this off my chest tonight at work, so there isn't much to my post. I'll probably be posting more about comics tomorrow after I stop by my local dealer. lol.... dealer?
"A shame" is something I'm hearing a lot from people when a celebrity is arrested or has died or what ever else is going wrong in their lives. To me, I don't say its a shame, I say what a waste. To use Lindsay Lohan as an example; she is popular, attractive, rich and has had until recently a very good chance to continue a sucessful carear as an actress making more money than most people dream about. Now, not to say she hasn't worked hard to get to where she is at, because I don't know what her life was like when she grew up. I know she was in movies as a child but I only started seeing her in movies like Herbie Fully Loaded and Mean Girls.
Now, that being said... the reason I say what a waste is because I can't understand how someone like Lindsay can waste all that opportunity of money and fame on partying, drinking and drugs. I come from a frame of mind where heavy drinking and drugs and partying just doesn't make sense. Why I think this way I don't know. But to me, if I had the money she has and if I was as well known as she is, life would be so much easier. And I challenge any celebrity to approach me and tell me otherwise. I would be able to stop working Security and finally get my comic book going. I wouldn't have to worry if I'm going to pay rent on time. Keep the power on. Or if my kids are going to have diapers and formula, let alone grow up with opportunities of their own.
But hey, who am I to judge Lindsay right? Its her life, not mine right? Well its not so much about judging as it is recognizing a complete waste of opportunity. And I'm starting to get damned determined to get myself out to a wider audience in this world to prove that someone can obtain wealth and fame without having to also party and do drugs. And I won't even start in about using drugs. But hey, I know there are a lot of Celebrities out there that aren't like this. And I personally wouldn't say that every celbrity is messed up like Lindsay is right now. We just hear about it on the news because people want to hear more about the tragic lives of celebrities and not the good things they do.
So what else can I say? Nothing much really. I got most of this off my chest tonight at work, so there isn't much to my post. I'll probably be posting more about comics tomorrow after I stop by my local dealer. lol.... dealer?
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Hi, my name is...
So last week when I started this blog I got off on a bit of a rant about Fast Food. Well I thought I'd give a little insight to who I am this week, and also touch on a few current events.
Who am I? Well I am Greg Scott Bailey, a comic book artist from the Seattle/Tacoma area of Washington State, USA. And by comic book artist I mean that I create, draw, some times ink, computer color and letter comic book art. I've focused on a wide variety of the comic book field as far as creating comics go, but because of that I don't have a really strong grasp on one specific area of comics. I can draw people, but my anatomy needs work. I can color, but I have a hard time understanding lighting and color theory. And as far as creating.... well I have a butt load of stories in my head and I've barely been able to start writing a lot of it down.
I want to create a world just like Tolkien did with Lord of the Rings (and other books mind you). Or even when you read a Marvel comic, you can read about the Fantastic Four in their book, and hear about what they did in a Spider-man or X-men book too. The continuity and the intermixed universe of characters has always intrigued me and I think of it every day when I think of my comic book, Mocktales.
So what do I do? Several times over the years I've tried to look for other artists and writers to help with the project. I've received submissions from some decent artists. Some that have probably surpassed me now and are going to be getting steady work in the industry, there is no doubt there. But I hesitate to accept anyone because its hard to let any creative control go. I want to do everything because I have yet to find an artist who can draw my characters in a comfortable fashion that I can deal with. However, this isn't any one person's fault but my own because I've barely let anyone see what my designs are. So how the hell can they work off my designs right? *laughs* Well the more I work on my Ego and my stubbornness, the easier it has been to accept that I will have to let some of the creative control go. BUT... not all of course. So again, what do I do? Do I try to become one of these artist in the world that people walk around saying, "Oh, he's an artist. He's allowed to be weird," and make my fame that way? Or do I become a commercial artist and do what the masses want so I can make a big paycheck?
Movies? TV shows? Animation? Hell, I want Mocktales to be anything. Action figures and T-Shirts. But why do I want this? Is it again, my ego? Am I still a child and wish to fullfill some George Lucas fantasy by turning my creation into a marketing empire? With three kids and a wife who doesn't work, selling out to a corporate entity wouldn't be too hard for me right now if the numbers on the check were pleasing. I'd say they have to have at least 6 zero's before the decimal point, US Dollars please. Thank you.
Who am I? Well I am Greg Scott Bailey, a comic book artist from the Seattle/Tacoma area of Washington State, USA. And by comic book artist I mean that I create, draw, some times ink, computer color and letter comic book art. I've focused on a wide variety of the comic book field as far as creating comics go, but because of that I don't have a really strong grasp on one specific area of comics. I can draw people, but my anatomy needs work. I can color, but I have a hard time understanding lighting and color theory. And as far as creating.... well I have a butt load of stories in my head and I've barely been able to start writing a lot of it down.
I want to create a world just like Tolkien did with Lord of the Rings (and other books mind you). Or even when you read a Marvel comic, you can read about the Fantastic Four in their book, and hear about what they did in a Spider-man or X-men book too. The continuity and the intermixed universe of characters has always intrigued me and I think of it every day when I think of my comic book, Mocktales.
So what do I do? Several times over the years I've tried to look for other artists and writers to help with the project. I've received submissions from some decent artists. Some that have probably surpassed me now and are going to be getting steady work in the industry, there is no doubt there. But I hesitate to accept anyone because its hard to let any creative control go. I want to do everything because I have yet to find an artist who can draw my characters in a comfortable fashion that I can deal with. However, this isn't any one person's fault but my own because I've barely let anyone see what my designs are. So how the hell can they work off my designs right? *laughs* Well the more I work on my Ego and my stubbornness, the easier it has been to accept that I will have to let some of the creative control go. BUT... not all of course. So again, what do I do? Do I try to become one of these artist in the world that people walk around saying, "Oh, he's an artist. He's allowed to be weird," and make my fame that way? Or do I become a commercial artist and do what the masses want so I can make a big paycheck?
Movies? TV shows? Animation? Hell, I want Mocktales to be anything. Action figures and T-Shirts. But why do I want this? Is it again, my ego? Am I still a child and wish to fullfill some George Lucas fantasy by turning my creation into a marketing empire? With three kids and a wife who doesn't work, selling out to a corporate entity wouldn't be too hard for me right now if the numbers on the check were pleasing. I'd say they have to have at least 6 zero's before the decimal point, US Dollars please. Thank you.
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