Thursday, October 22, 2009

Return of the Blog

So I'm back to writing in this thing. The last time I wrote here I was talking about my life changing into a new direction. Not very descriptively though.

Well here is the deal; 1 year and 4 months later after my last blog I am now going through a divorce with my wife, ending our five years together as husband and wife. I am now alone in my apartment with debt pouring out of my ears and no one to seek comfort from in my time of need. However... I'm not massively in debt and honestly with a good 6 months of hard work I will be out of the clear and on top of things as long as I stick to it and work hard.

Since the initial stages of my divorce (starting back in August), I have been trying to figure a game plan out. What is the best way to be a father to my three wonderful children and continue to strive towards doing the things I want to do in life? I work a 40 hour a week job and I'm greatful that I make the salary that I make. I'm very lucky in that aspect. And if I can get all my ducks lined up in a row, I should be able to do what I want in life while being responsible at the same time.

I'm still trying hard to get MockTales drawn and out to the public. At this point I have a 1st issue planned to be printed by March 2010 and debuting at the Emerald City Comic Con here in Seattle. However, I have been trying to do this for the last, what, 8 years? Since I moved to Wisconsin after September 11th, I tried to put some sort of focus in my life towards my artwork. And after the emotional rollercoaster of the year 2001, I had come up with a concept for a comic book that I wanted to bring to the world; MockTales. I took everything I had sketched and planned out in my head with various ideas over the previous years and finally had a concept that I felt would work. This version of MockTales was relevant to me because of what I went through in my life at the time. However, since then I have been through five years of marriage and I now have three kids, and as mentioned above, I am now going through a divorce. So where does that leave MockTales; well I've started a revamped version of my intial script and story. And I think I've amped it up 150%. I feel more confident about the direction I'm taking the book. I think the story achieved more purpose and direction. And my artwork in the last 2 months, let alone the last 2-5 years has never been better (if I may be so bold).

So thats not the whole story. And unfortunately you won't get the whole story on this blog. But essentially I'm having a night where I was able to pour my heart out to someone very important to me and that person let me get a lot out this evening. I feel better every time I get to emotionally express myself. Most of the time I'm hiding back watery eyes because I think I have some sort of issue where they water up when I talk about something serious. I've been meaning to see a Doctor all these years about it. Maybe I'm really a woman and no one told me? Haha. Jokes aside though, I do seem to get overly emotional because I care a lot about things that most people don't realize or care about themselves. So because of that I try to keep those emotions locked up inside until I have to pretty much explode.

Where does that leave us now? Well if you're someone who happens across this blog and even gives a shit, thanks! I don't really care with the exception of finally getting to a point in my life where I don't want to keep things I think about on the back burner any more. I have wanted to do what makes me happy in life. You can read that in my last blog which was, again, 1 year 4 months ago. So what makes me happy? Well; Comic books and Women. Science Fiction and Women. Fantasy and Women. Women and Women. You will now see the theme about girls/women all the time from this point on from me. I'm not ashamed to admit I'm a lusting kind of guy. I've always loved the female form. Drawing girls in comics is one of my favorite passions. [on a side note; I say girls and I say women... they mean the same to me which is talking about members of the famle human race. I don't use the term girls solely to describe a female under the age of 18 like a lot of people. I use it to describe any girl/woman/female. Now back to our program]

Okay I'm done for now. I'll be attempting to write here more often. I think I might want to rant a bit about people's driving so we'll see about making that the theme of my next blog. I also want to address my issue with following through on promises I've intended to keep and try to explain to everyone why I've been fucking up there. But I will leave that for the next blog and that is a Promise!

-Greg Scott Bailey